Silly me

This past week I went and banged my knee at work and of course it hurt like crazy. I hit it right on the side of the kneecap, ouch and a few other words came to mind. This weekend I decided to no longer let my injuries restrict my training. I have been shying away from the San shou class and was justifying it by saying it's only until I get better. But I really sat and had a long look inside myself. I realized I was accepting mediocrity again. I can attend class and just do what I am able, and modify the rest. I don't have to do everything and kill or re-injure myself. I don't have to worry about what everyone else in the class is doing. I can do the best I am able, and push myself to my own limits. I have heard this said a number of times, but I was sitting there folding laundry and thinking about my Kung Fu it finally sunk in. I can learn a little by watching, but only by doing am I really going to learn and improve. One small step on the road to mastery even if it's sideways is better then standing there doing nothing or running backwards and not realizing it.

Miss the team already

I think I managed to retreave all of this post. Here's hoping. This is the first week after the banquet and it has been strange. You would think I would love having all the extra time from no extra practises but that isn't the case. I miss the team and commraderie(spelling police check). I'm always amazed at how I get set into a routine and when it suddenly isn't there I feel all out of sorts. I definately felt like something was missing in my training this week. I know my wife appreciates having me home more, and I got to spent more time catching up on my family's activities. That I do enjoy. My family is important to me and sometimes I get to involved in my training and I get selfish. I need to get my family more involved and invested in my kung fu so that they see and understand what it is I'm trying to achieve. Without the support of my family I'll never achieve my black belt or any form of mastery. This week I have been focusing on what I really need to improve to achieve my blue belt. That's the next goal I have set. My forms and techniques feel good, of course forms can always be improved. Board breaking I know all the mental aspects, hopefully my injuries won't affect the physical to much. Chokes defences I need to review big time and get down pat. Look out open training here I come. The other goal I have set myself is to miss as few classes as possible this year. If I'm not in class I'm not learning and staying engaged in my training. I believe blue belt to be a big step on the way towards achieving my black belt. I have alot of hard work ahead of me, but if I can just approach my training in a mindful way, I know I can get it done.

what have i done now

My last two blog post are somehow stuck in draft limbo. I have been trying to enhance my blog site and I have obviously messed something up. I love technology, but sometimes it likes to play jokes on me. I can get part of my one blog but the other is blocked atm. So will have to see if the old memory is up for a challenge. I think I have managed to reset things properly and I guess I'll find out the hard way when I post this blog. This past week has been good, all the snow hasn't bummed me out like I thought it would. If anything my walks with Doggie have been amazing. So peaceful and quiet. Even slugging through the deep snow has been enjoyable. Todays walk completely replenished my spirit. The sun was warm, not a sound except for the occasional bird and no wind as we walked along the trail beside the train tracks. I am so looking forward to no snow or ice. But today it just didn't matter. I love the ahhhhhhhhh moments in life.